Well, it's definitely past the first 9 weeks point in school by now, we're in the 2nd of 4 9 weeks period for this year, my Senior year. The final year.

Before long, so much will change for me. Sometimes I feel like I'm ready and sometimes I don't. Honestly, I don't really know. A lot of questions run through my mind; What will I do? Will I keep in touch with my friends? What's going to happen in the "Real World" as some call it...

I definitely do not want to remain in Madison for the rest of my life. I definitely want to avoid making a living there at all costs. The town just irks me highly and is flat out not the place for me. At all.

I might stay in the state, but then again, part of me wants to move. If I were to move anywhere, I would probably like to try Syracuse, New York. I love the town and a good half of my entire family lives there.

Charlottesville may be another option though. It does have a pretty good music scene, so maybe I'll try to get involved with that somehow. I may have to stick out some more years living in Madison but just as long as I don't have to spend most of my time there, I'd be happy. I have some friends here in the state I'd like to keep touch with, I just hope that would still work out too.

I don't honestly see myself going to college. I'd like to think I'd cut it out alright in college, but I don't think I would. I just don't see it happening for me.

I wish I could just go through this year without thinking much. I just can't help it though. I'm unsure about a lot of things. I don't really know what to do, who to talk to, or even what to know. It sure would be awesome if I could at least talk to somebody though.

Hey, I'm one out of the many, many, many more who are confused about life. So what the hell, lol.

Take it easy, all.